A Quiescent Mind

No work?

2007-01-16T07:02:41Z

I don't have to go to work tell thursday (no idea why). 24 is awesome this season by the way! I started playing everquest with my friends again. I can feel time slipping away as I attempt to punch a badly animated snakes half the size of my fist just so I can gain a level so I can learn a skill that will make me punch the snake better. My brother apparently told this girl at my work what I had said about her (That she kinda acts like everyone is crazy.) She apparently didn't take offence which is good but I would rather he have not have told her. Oh well. Oh and happy birthday perpetualraver!!!

Marines

2007-01-12T06:30:24Z

I was at Academe looking at paint-ball pistols when a couple of men came up to me and started talking. We talked about paint-ball for a bit. It took a minute but I noticed that one man hand a marine core hat shortly after this they began trying to recruit me. They said things like "The military will pay 100% of your college cost." and "I figured you might wanna join since you seem to like paint-ball and it's sorta the same thing." In which I responded "Well I don't think I have ever gone a round in paint-ball with out getting shot so... I'm not really sure I wanna use real bullets..." He responded by telling me about jobs that didn't involve using a gun. A weird and tiring experience... Afterward I went to sonic.

I completely forgot to mention having to deal with Xbox support yesterday. After talking with them and getting responses like "Is it plugged in?" and "So you are having a problem?"... No I'm not having problems with my xbox I just wanted to call and let you know that it works great... they decided that it truly had a problem and they would send a request to have it repaired.

Stoned...

2007-01-11T06:34:28Z

So it looks like the medication doesn't really help the pain any. It seems to just get me so stoned I don't care. So needless to say I've stopped taking it. It's disappointing because this means I will have to go back to physical rehab (which didn’t really work). I can’t see how people like being stoned... It’s just void of everything... You can’t think you don’t feel you don’t care and generally you are to fatigued to do anything. Being to tired to do anything you just feel like sitting and not thinking. It was the worst feeling...

Jan 7

2007-01-08T05:42:14Z

I can't think of a good name for this post... The medication seems to work a lot better than I thought, thought it does make me rather tired... Anyway I played the violin some today figured out somethings I could do better. I tired to play Xbox 360 but the internet was down so I couldn't do updates or play online. My mom was sick so we were almost late but she was doing better later apparently (she was asleep when I got home past 10). My day at work was rather boring it was really slow and there was only one checker for most of it. She doesn't talk much at all... Well to me at least. I'm not really sure why. But I get the impression she has troubles at home... I'm thinking about trying to post here at a least once a week.

Forgot to post for a while

2007-01-06T20:45:52Z

Forgot to post for a while. I've gone to the doctor a few times to get medication. One kind I tried made me really sick late at night. I spat up some blood which is one of the severe side effects (internal bleeding). I never really paid attention to those severe side effects since there's only a small chance of getting it. I called the doctor about it the next day. They told me me if it happened again to go to the ER. They also got me a appointment the next day. They gave me some new medication which I tried out while my cousin were in town. It wasn't that effective. After a brief excursion to the outlet mall I wasn't able to feel my legs for the whole time and for a hour or two afterward. My mom kept coming in my room hinting that I should go and talk with the cousin... I just didn't feel good enough to do that. But we were able to go party a little with my brother which was cool. However one annoying thing is the fact that the internet connection keeps going down...

$7.54

2006-12-24T05:48:59Z

I woke up this morning took my shower and had breakfast. My mom went to go Christmas shopping, she had to use my brothers car since my dad's car has broken down again. My brother whined about it the whole time she was gone. When she got back he stomped around the house but didn't do anything about it. Later ,when he was in a better mood we played music together it was the most fun I've had playing in a group ever. I use to play the bass in a band with my friends but they had to kick me out for not practicing. That and they found a guy who could play really well, turns out the guy doesn't have time to be in a band.

It was a dark and rainy day today when I went to work I had to get the carts in the parking lot 6-7 times. Despite that today was great. I was given my first tip at work today ($7.54 most of which was change). I told them they didn't need to give it to me but they did anyway and I found it had to argue in the cold rain. I also got to know some of the checkers better today. It was cool to talk to someone other than my brother at work about things not related to work. I had lunch with one checker I forgot to pray before I ate which was really weird since I pray before I eat or drink anything. She remembered though, it's weird that you never see people pray in public about food or the like anymore. The dye from my black leather gloves ran through the gloves to my hands I was worried that my hands had turned colors again but they didn't feel right for that. I was having so much fun that It wasn't tell I got home (which had been Christmas'd out by my mom) that I realized how much pain and how tired I was.

Slow day of midi files

2006-12-23T06:16:03Z

Today nothing really happened. The only major event that happened today was that I learned how to convert midi files into sheet music through garage band. This means that I can learn to play the melody to almost any song. This is a great way to learn songs for the violin that aren't "lightly row" and the like.

My dad's cd

2006-12-20T18:11:16Z

My dad's cd came out yesterday. He's been working on it for a while and it's cool that it's finally done. He's really happy about it which is very cool. Anyway I'm gonna go do some cristmas shopping now.

Trail of lights & the dentist

2006-12-19T06:11:26Z

I went to the dentist today for a check up and a cleaning. The woman who did the cleaning was very nice. I have a cavity...

Keith olbermann is on the TV he right now he is burning the president saying "How dare you... How dare you mister president how dare you spin 9/11" I agree completely. The lives of those people should not be used for anything. Their deaths should be mourned. But instead of grief it is only a perversion of this event that we see...

Anyway back to the dentist I told them how I had started drinking cokes again he was disappointed I guess. I really can't drink it anymore since it is so bad for me. It's a sad fact but true the fact is. Oh well.

We went to the trail of lights a local celebration of Christmas involving a mile stretch of lights and displays. A fun holiday tradition in addition to our wrapping gifts every year. It was fun but the traffic was bad and the place was crowed. The grocery store I work at had sponsored one display involving a rather generic looking group of dancing candy. The candy looked like M&Ms really... What does M&M stand for anyway?

At the end of the trail was a Christian doom-sayer asking any to refute what he said. My friend said what I was thinking "People like that give christians a bad name." It is my belief that the only way to get anyone to believe what you do is to show them not force them why you believe it. The way you show someone should not be fear. People who believe in God shouldn't do so because they don't want to go to hell they should because they love him.

A comic book for kids that I picked up for free at the mall. It in so many words told the reader that God will give up on you after awhile. This is not the God I know and love.

On one final random note the dentist said I have geographic tongue. Meaning that my tongue changes it’s look... Or something. Anyway only about 10% of the population has this but most of the people can’t eat spicy foods. The odd thing is not only do I eat spicy foods but I enjoy them.

A Days work

2006-12-18T04:38:41Z

I have one of the most boring jobs ever. I work at a grocery store, I sack groceries. Im not a checker but a sacker. I get a decent pay really so I don't have to work may hours. I work at the same store as my brother. According to the rules of the company he can't over see my work. Luckily the management is lazy and really,despite all their insistence to the contrary don't really enforce any rules. I could ,if I wanted to, do absolutely nothing at all and not get even a warning. The only thing you can really do to to get fired is steal. Luckily for them I do the work.

Anyway we were trying to collect money for some charity. But any customer who bought 1$ to help out the kids got a 8oz blak. Blak for those of you who don't know is most likely the most disgusting thing to ingest as a drink. It's coke and coffee, I'm told it's more coke than coffee but still.

I like coffee shops but I hate coffee. I love the coffee shop aura the feeling of calm and slowed time while I'm at one.

Old friends

2006-12-17T06:49:13Z

My brother was/is sick today. Despite what I said he still went to work. He got sick in the car and needed a ride.

While he was at work I went to the grocery store. I looked at the Xbox 360 games they had. They were all $60. I don't really have the money for that so I decided not to get any (as if that's "deciding").

As I was walking out of the electronic section this girl I knew in 4th and 5th grade came up and started talking to me. She remembered my name which was kinda cool since I remembered her's.But even if I hadn't she had a nametag on. Though she was always rather nice to me....

Anyway, we talked about working in a grocery store. The one she works at is more of a warehouse than a store. It use to be a small corn field but the land was bought out to build the shopping center. The Store itself takes up most of the mile long corn field.

When I got home I practiced the violin for a bit tell my wrist hurt. I'm still not that great but I'm getting better. Once I buy some peg wax I'll switch out the strings. I switched out the highest string since it broke while tuning. It won't stay in tune without the peg wax.

Does god exist

2006-12-17T00:37:45Z

I wrote these a while a go in a debate in a thread called "Does god exist?"

Here's what I like to the call the "If I were God concept" Here's the idea If you were god what would you do? Ok so lets start before the beginning as it is. Here’s what it would be like for me

I exist... technically I don't yet as that existing means that there is time in which there is to do so... I refer to this "before time" as purpling. Purpling is rather boring there is literally nothing to do except make things. So the next thing I would do would be make time, "and it was so." Ok so now that's done I'm now technically existing which is still rather boring as only me and time exist. What's the good of existing if all you can do is create? This really isn't any better than purpling. Wouldn't be fun to make a bunch a places for lower beings that live, act like idiots, and say to me "hey dude you rock." That would be sweet... Ok well this is a major investment a lot can go wrong... Or a lot can go right nothing ventured after all... Well how to go about making something as cool as life... Let's blow crap up! Well there isn't anything to blow up...oh well I'll do it anyway... "and it was so" Dang that was hard... Well now that places exist let's put stuff in the places like plants err something... Oh how about people that look like me... ugh this creating stuff is hard work... ok now we have humans and monkeys and crap... Free will sounds fun..."and it was so" I really tired and I have done a lot stuff... but their really dumb... If I relax their gonna do something really stupid like kill themselves...maybe I should have waited on the free will thing tell I was less tired... oh crap, their looking at me... I should say something really cool... I mean these are my first words to be heard by mortal ears... "err.... Take care of the earth it was freaking hard to make..." Well that was lame but it got the idea across... "Oh and don't touch my freaking tree... and name stuff!" I made the crap it's the least they could do... Hey who are you? Lucifer? I don't remember making you... *after a few minutes of discussion* Lucifer your being a complete loser go to hell... Well I’m gonna chill for a bit. *insert chilling here* "Ok sup ya'll... wait... What the heck? You ate from the freaking tree?!? I told you to do like 3 things and you screw up? Don't give me that crap about naming animals and taking care of earth being hard I freaking made all that." All this making stuff is hard... Evolution seems easy let them figure out what they need...

At 11/4/06 03:50 AM, wwwyzzerdd wrote:
: Who/What created God?
:
: And don't give me your "God always existed" bullshit, because the fact that something complex enough to create anything that's remotely "complex" would therefore by your logic, need a creator.

Your question limits the view of focus so that the only answer is the "God always existed bullshit" your disapproval of this route makes us try and think that something else people want to prove you wrong. But for three reasons you will not get the answer you want.
1.Your fighting on the internet, everyone thinks they know everything
2.Your fighting people who literally believe and practice the worship of god religiously
3.You don't want to hear any answer.
It's much more convenient for your psyche to believe that we are wrong in this case. The only way you will every hear a good answer is to chill out and think.

Unfortunately most of the people who believe in religions do so on emotional reasons. They don't often stray to think about why science contradicts them. Thing is it doesn't but they believe it does because they are told so.
People who don't believe in God have a easier playing field as far as this whole argument goes with science on "their" side they can point to their facts and be correct.
I agree that the painter analogy is flawed at best. It contradicts itself. If the painter painted God then who is the painter (and so on and so forth)? Indeed God did and didn't exist for a while (He purpled first. Read my "If I were god rant" for more on that) God created time with time created he began existing... In one way you could say that God made time and time in turn made god exist.

Did that answer your question?

Ingression

2006-12-16T08:09:25Z

I found this website when I was looking at a art dump of one of my friends. I've known about it for a while really but it really never appealed to me. I was riding in the car today, the traffic was very heavy. So I had sometime to think about stuff. I was on my way home from helping wrapping gifts a lot of places turned me away when I offered due to having to many people helping (A good thing I guess). It’s holiday tradition I have now it wouldn’t be Christmas with out helping someone with wrapping. Just before helping I had taken my intro to psych final. I think I got all but 2 right if so that bumps my grade up for the class up to a “A”. I don’t like scoring anything less than a low “B”. I figure if your grade represents your understanding then understanding any less than 80% of what is taught you fail to have a general knowledge of the subject.
Anyway I was in traffic with a headache from the pepsi and Dr pepper I had had in the last few hours. I normally don’t drink cokes, it’s not good for you but it taste great so I only drink them now and then. Having two in drinks in one day is odd enough. Having two in two hours is very strange.
So I listened to Blue October thinking of getting home and not having to worry about any school work (though this fact didn’t hit me tell much later). I started to think about writing some short stories. I remembered this website and decided to make a account and post some of them and use this as a outlet. A journal is good idea after all you never know what trivial thing is important later in life (when you begin to forget things).